I thought that instead of a work conference to show how i have become drenched in the work world, i would repeat the words i said before in the recording, but change them to represent where i am at now. No hope, In an office job, and through monotone voice and a face without emotion i will deliver these lines:
There I am
Centre stage at the reception desk
The lights flicker and fade because the meter hasn’t been paid
Ive got a job in the company of a lifetime
Applied through an agency and they want me they want me
Im printing and phoning and theyre typing and probing
And ive signed on with an agency for admin work and theres a position coming up next year in head offcies they say ive got potential and I’m about to go up now
To print off another invoice ive got to go now
I like my job
I feel like this is where I am meant to be
Ive learnt how to fax invoices
Ive learnt how to open spreadsheets
I can do 30 a day
Aren’t you happy I went this way
Here i will come out of character and into myself to read:
As as the time goes tick tock
There’s a knock at her door 15 years later
A promotion
No fulfilled dreams to travel the ocean
She went with the greyness of the motions
And the man in the grey suit got out his net
caught the butterfly so now she’s good for dead.
(Here i will take off my jacket and continue):
Im not scared about leaving university
Im absolutely fucking shitting myself
But when the hands of life clasp around your throat
And theres no oxygen to your brain the colours will start to drain
and youre listening to the same person explain
how if you don’t settle down theyre going to class you insane
and I don’t know if you feel the same
but when you turn 82 and you look back on your life with regret who are you going to blame?
Grow up they said
What does that mean?
Well im saying no cos if I continue to dream
Ill never grow old but you’ll outgrow me.
END