The next part of text i created, to come after the rap is as follows:
I always like to be the one that makes people laugh
I haven’t had the best of pasts you see I like to make light of things now because I know what its like to be down
Maybe that’s why ive always got my head in the clouds
Some call it procrastination I call it expressive imagination
Some call it adhd I call it escaping this world and the harsh realities
So when I came to this university I flourished
A drama degree of course ive been encouraged
I find it very difficult to do the writing part
Because it makes me sit still and the daydreaming starts
And Ive never really been able to master the art
Of not taking the bad things to heart
So I try not to take things very seriously
And I try and spread love to everybody
And that’s exactly the way I wanna be
One thing people probably don’t know about me
Is that I am actually filled with a lot of empathy
And that frightens me
Because I feel so much
Maybe too much for this world
Even as such a little girl
I had so much anger for the darkness in the world
I remember climbing a tree and seeing a redish goo come out of the bark it was the tree sap
See but for me I thought it was bleeding because I had climbed it and ive never been able to get over that
I remember how boys would stamp on snails in front of me and I would cry and cry
Pick up their shells bit by bit to try and fix it back together and I still wonder why
They say the phrase ‘she wouldn’t even hurt a fly’ very lightly
Because I wouldn’t
I couldn’t
These things may seem so minute to you, there’s bigger things that happen in the world yes that’s very true but these things keep me awake at night
And now you know the reason why I try and escape it all in my mind
Im just a happy person
And I believe in myself
You know its so important
Life does through you some shit at times weve all been through it
But were here for a purpose and I wanna be an actress, so im going to pursue it!
I will maintain optimism here and then let the voice of authority come in and ruin it all for me. I had explored trying to do this by myself, changing my voice bu ti found this too difficult, and i think it would confuse my audience. So, i decided to record it, with the voice of the boss coming in, shown here in bold:
There I am centre stage the lights flicker and fade as I continue my escapade
Ive got an audition of a lifetime
Agents are sitting in the front row and they want me they want ME
Im strutting and twirling and theyre clapping and standing and
JODIE
Theyre clapping and standing they want me in this big film coming up next year and they said ive got something special and
JODIE
Something reallllly special and im about to go on now, and start my dream job working with the biggest names, theyre calling me on
JODIE
Ive got to go now the shows about to start
JODIE
ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO ME? Im seriously gonna have to reconsider your place in this company
Youre missing calls, youre costing us a lot of money.
Do you even wanna be here? If I don’t see some improvement starting now there’s going to be serious consequences. Now wake the fuck up….
As this recording plays, i will stand, to start with in my own world, my smile beaming, looking to the sky, hopeful, imagining a life in the industry. When the male authoritative voice comes in to send me down to reality my face will drop, the lights will dim and i will lose my hope. This will then lead straight into the second projection, wherein the video represents the sadness in my eyes, while i try to escape, and there’s a man that walks back and fourth who is representative of ‘my boss’. While the video plays i will put on a suit jacket and move in robotic movements. No flowing movements or energy that i will have had previously.